Midnight Pub
Cursed love.
~kebabmaster
TLDR: My prediction on most of trans women + I don't want to be gay.
K, I have experienced some sort of sad love inside myself for some time.
There is that guy, who looks kinda weird. Long hair, no beard, and it almost seems like he aims to be a girl. His voice is much more feminine than anyone would expect from a man. He also mentioned on his profiles that his pronouns are She/Her. Yet he has not been declared as transgender by himself publically and formally. He listens also to some... umm... "Undertale" like music... in general there are vocals... but they are not as ravish/brutal as mine.
So as a typical schizo retard, who likes tin foil hats, is interested in polishing the rough stone and working for the god, and cried while watching neo/-nazi propaganda, I tried to stay away from him because of the possible huge gap between our mindsets.
I must also mention that I haven't felt any love for any girl for a long time. Not to mention, that the "rules" advise us to stay away from them. My porn addiction has simply converted them into bags of meat or stinky subhumans, which on the other hand was a pretty successful way to quit this addiction.
But once upon a time, after a workout in the gym, I took a shower, and while I was taking it, I suddenly started to touch my body very hard. This was the moment I started falling into the gayish rabbit hole. But knowing my beliefs on gays, I decided I needed to quit thinking about this lusty stuff. So I decided to grow a beard. So that I at least will have some sort of a scar or ugliness on my face, so that they won't even let me step into this rabbit hole. One problem that also haunts me to this day is my voice or look that in some cases may just look or sound very childish, even despite that beard.
But now, a new love challenge has arrived, and it is that guy I mentioned at the beginning. The college has forced us to work together. And we sill do it. But knowing my egoism or tendency towards devilish acts, I think that if I would continue deepening my relationship with him I would eventually try to make myself profit, no matter what costs he would get. But also this may make him think that the path that he is on is a path with a "positive" outcome.
And so here I speculate on potential pathways this person may take if his partner would leave him.
- "Small Pizzas" - He may think that the older his partner gets, the less attracted he may be to him/her. So He/She may start to look for younger partners who may be more attracted to him/her... The problem is that he/she also will look older... and... yeah... the younger, the worse.
- Detransition - I guess this may be the toughest path to take, but the outcome of this path may potentially open a lot more possibilities.
- Widow - Idk, Enlightment of some sort.
I know that I can't assume that he is trans just by the few facts I know about him... But I just wanted to write this up here so I won't feel any regret for what would happen to him.
Please don't tell me I would have to support him/her now.
But anyway, what' ya think?
tadpole
If you want to shove away your 'devilish' feelings you can. I also know, as a happy trans person in a happy relationship that the rate at which trans folks end up killing themselves is a result of the stigmatization of us. We are hated. We are seen as an other, the perverse opposition, and that is such a lonely life to live, when one doesn't have a proper support network.
Alternatively, consider that trans people are human, no different from yourself. I am a childish trans person to the outside world. I enjoy media that a lot of people consider childish, I try to continue to be happy in spite of hardship and I find comfort in whatever I can, even if it is stuffed animals and ds games. And yet that does not make my girlfriend perverse or a pedophile.
Talk to them. Learn about their life and their experiences, and share your own if you wish. Discovering any sort of love can be wonderful, as long as you explore it and learn from it. Transitioning and finding comfort in the arms of my love- as horribly sappy as it sounds- has been absolutely huge for my growth as a person I feel.
Either way, even if you wouldn't wish the same for me, I wish you the best in your journey whichever path you take. I hope your sad love becomes happier.
melodyuwu
if they use pronouns she/her then I believe you should use them in your post too. You would show some respect this way I believe if it turns out they are transgender. And besides, they can have whatever pronouns they want regardless of gender ;p
you should also probably play tetris with them, because tetris is a great game
kebabmaster
Honestly, these custom pronouns are the stupidest idea I have ever known.
Since my mind is ego by default/nature, I don't see any reason to remember someone's wishes or desires to be treated differently because of how they feel today or for whatever reason. Sure, I will probably remember names and so on, but not anything I don't see any reason to remember.
IDK, but if somebody wants to be pronounced as she/her, she or he must look like a woman. It is their business to deceive me and let everybody know that he/she is what it aims to be. Someone may ask "what is a woman" then, well instead of asking the one who uses these pronounces, ask the one who is meant to obey these rules.
Otherwise, if these kinds of pronouns have some reason to exist, then please explain why people can say that their pronouns are xsydfbsfusydf/xsydfbsfusydf or bla/bla. How the heck would I have to respect these kinds of descriptions about someone?
Maybe I am too stupid to understand this thing so... illuminate me, if you wish.
anneliese
I agree!
As a confused about gender person myself, I use any pronouns but I know how it feels to be misgendered as a person who formerly identified as a guy.
I also agree with your second point, Tetris is a great game :3