let go

~fallenriver

left this place dormant for a while. glad to see it's still running as always. ~bartender, a filter coffee please!

the hectic life of a university student continues with full force. got myself into a relatively normal social situation after months of looking for normality. dorm life with close friends turned out to be fine, thank god. probably the best part of the semester.

however, i am working myself to death. it's always been in my nature to try to serve a purpose. this purpose can come in the form of many things: music, games, friends, school, etc. this time though, i got myself into a position where i can't quite let go. i have to let go. i have to let go of something. either that or i'll have to let myself go. for obvious reasons, i can't let that happen.

let go of the fight,

become one with the night,

for only after you die,

will you see the light.

i might have to leave a part of myself. those old parts that don't serve me anymore. it's fitting to let go of those parts i think. maybe let go of some people too. i'll need more time to figure it out. for now, i just have to let go of all thought and get some rest. hopefully the night lets me find some temporary peace.