so
finally
off probation
big
yay moment
and then
decided to
'celebrate'
by getting
plastered
for
a week
ugh
many
stupid decisions
a hospital stay
and
pissing off
several neighbors
and
my landlord
been picking
the pieces
up
the last
three days
did detox
not fun
delirium tremens
night terrors
no sleep
needless to say
i'm done
four years ago
tomorrow
my fiance died
i swore then
to never drink
but
the grief
got
too real
drank for
the past
four years
many dumb decisions
accidents
law enforcement
homlessness
probation
and forced treatment
after 8 months
sober
thought i
could drink
nope
it's too much
i don't believe
the aa bullshit
of
'powerlessness'
but i DO
believe that some
shouldn't drink
i shouldn't
so
today
i had my
LAST
beer
and tomorrow
in honor of her
on the
fourth anniversary
of her passing
i will renew
my vow
and forever stay
sober
in her memory
on the day
she passed
a constant
honoring
and
reminder
of why i became
and will
remain
always sober
for
her love
for
her memory
for
myself
and
for
those that
need help
too
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