|sobriety| >>> part DEUX ^¥^

~wolfinthewoods

so

finally

off probation

big

yay moment

and then

decided to

'celebrate'

by getting

plastered

for

a week

ugh

many

stupid decisions

a hospital stay

and

pissing off

several neighbors

and

my landlord

been picking

the pieces

up

the last

three days

did detox

not fun

delirium tremens

night terrors

no sleep

needless to say

i'm done

four years ago

tomorrow

my fiance died

i swore then

to never drink

but

the grief

got

too real

drank for

the past

four years

many dumb decisions

accidents

law enforcement

homlessness

probation

and forced treatment

after 8 months

sober

thought i

could drink

nope

it's too much

i don't believe

the aa bullshit

of

'powerlessness'

but i DO

believe that some

shouldn't drink

i shouldn't

so

today

i had my

LAST

beer

and tomorrow

in honor of her

on the

fourth anniversary

of her passing

i will renew

my vow

and forever stay

sober

in her memory

on the day

she passed

a constant

honoring

and

reminder

of why i became

and will

remain

always sober

for

her love

for

her memory

for

myself

and

for

those that

need help

too

gemini://wolfinthewoods.pollux.casa

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