not much to say today. just sort of enjoying some nice weather and chilling after a busy week.
I managed to spend some time close to nature this week. it's been a while. there's definitely a healing element in nature that brings some kind of weird joy. be somewhere really green, get dopamine, or something like that. they say that we should all go out and touch grass and all I can do is agree with them. please do go out and touch grass. best advice I've ever read online, even if it comes from a 12-year-old playing Overwatch.
I wanna be one of these folks who spends his last days in a garden. it's not just the green all around you and the dirt in your fingers, although I've heard tell that there's something in the soil that lifts your mood when you're messing about in the garden. I think it's also the feeling of caring, or showing care for something, and seeing the results of that care. caring is natural for people, i think. but sometimes you also want to feel the satisfaction of seeing your care make a difference. sometimes you don't get that. plant a seed and wait 20 years for it to grow, or raise children and wait 40 for them to finally show gratitude.
or maybe I'll just go touch some grass.
Going outside is such a vital thing for humans and so many people don't even realise how much it does for one's wellbeing. And how many yet live in places where there is no nature to be seen.
I'm lucky enough to live in a place where I have some woods and a walking trail through all of that as a city amenity, and I've come to value it. Sometimes I just walk there, sometimes I jog for a while too. But it's good to disconnect and see things around you.
I go to find nature whenever I can. looking onto a big expanse of nature reminds me that not everything depends on me, and God or the universe or whatever-have-you is helping things develop according to its own pattern of perfection a little at a time. i feel like that also speaks to the idea of "touching grass" - remember that it's not all about you, that the world keeps on going without you, and that it is beautiful.