it is rather unbelievable
how far things have managed to come
...
it seems that time stops and waits for no-one.
even in spite of my aphasic anhedonic apathetic fentanyl faze.
9 years now.
i miss being a Part of Something Greater than Me.
mom , sister, father,
forgive my ignorance.
it shall not abate yet, but stay, maybe...
i do not know exactly what something like that would even take, if im being completely honest.
i wish i did.. i dont want this... i never wanted to live like this.... gods above....
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