Midnight Pub

50 days


Hello, bartender. This time pour me a coffee with orange juice, with ice. My favorite summer drink.

Today is the 50th day that I'm alcohol-free. Funny, but unwittingly it coincided with Lent in church. It's like my ascesis.

But I'm just tired. It wasn't the easiest of times, then the pandemic hit, I pulled my parents, who had lost a small business. After two years of the pandemic, we tried to open our own small business for my spouse, but 2 months after opening, this new war started and it was making noise with a front 250km away. Last summer was full of air defense work and explosions. But no casualties in our town, praise the universe.

I started drinking more alcohol in '20, with the start of the pandemic, from fatigue and feelings of hopelessness. By the time the war started, I was already burned out and I was prescribed antidepressants, which partially aggravated the problem - alcohol began to tear me down. I started to do a lot of stupid things, and I went downhill. At work, the quality of my work fell, and more and more often I woke up with a hangover.

Fifty days ago I woke up and said, I've had enough. I set a goal of seven days, then 21 days, then a month. And then I noticed how my life changed in a month. How interest, hobbies, and new ideas came back.

I decided to study the game engine Defold, and it is very cool. I had never written a graphical application, well, only in my youth on ZX Spectrum. Basically my code was limited to working bash scripts and python, to automate tasks. For 2 months now I've been spending all my free time studying lua and the engine which is new to me. It seems my first demo of the game with the first level will be ready in a few days, although I'm not in a hurry and still polishing various bugs.

Family saw that I was back, my wife and mother breathed a sigh of relief, because for the last 1.5 years was so much events ... I was in a car accident and broke a few bones, a few clashes and fights, deprivation of the right to drive a car... All because of alcohol.

I guess I got you all mixed up, didn't I? But anyway, thanks for listening.

"Have a good day, guys. I hope tomorrow is a better day than today for all of us! See ya!"


Hey, can I join your table?

~bartender, get me a Chai latte, please, with Oat milk, if that's possible, thanks!

I hope this is now your 53rd day alcohol-free! I'm glad you came here and annouced that to everyone. We're proud of you!

Hang on to you family and your friends when you need to.

Hang on to your hobbies whenever that helps you. Don't push it, enjoy it.

We'll be here if you need us.

All the love to you and yours <3



Oh, yeah. Today is the 59th day and I'm still happy!

Thank you for your support.