Hey bartender, a water please. Cold.

I need something better.

I want to be the guy that made it by doing what he loves. IT is burning me out. I don’t want to stare at a computer all day long. But nothing else pays so well right now. And with my family it is hard to ‘jump into’ something else.

I want to get rid of so many habits. They keep crawling back to me. Is the ‘perfect life’ just a perfect lie? I don’t know, yet.

I hope i find some peace.

translucyd

My response to this, ironically, was books.

I bought a lot of physical books to read when I get a new job. Life inside the screen is too much for our eyes and mind and we ignore it in the name of profit and capitalism.

If you can, I suggest buy some books, or even an ebook reader if that's not too much money for you, and try to disconnect as frequently as possible.

To be honest, I didn't see results of this yet, but its my bet to stay sane.

Also, maybe some therapy could help you out with this feelings?

orchard

I am planning to do this as well. Let's hope it works out :) Thank you for your help

i'm still in college and i'm already struggling with this - in fact i have been for years. i don't want to just become a staff software engineer for the rest of my life, building out some platform for a massive company who is ruining all of us and everything around us. i want to do something good (or at least in utilitarian terms, something neutral) and be at peace. i feel an immense pressure constantly to continue down this path but also an equal and opposite reaction to it, the realization that this isn't what i want to do with the rest of my life. i don't feel like i'm in the right place, but i don't have any way to get there.

above all, i'm with you.

orchard

I try to do little things of good in everyday life. I hope to make a small difference. I might just switch to farming if this goes on any longer.

inquiry

Peace is proportional to the inverse of the amount of thoughts pertaining to self.

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jack

inquiry

Better yet: put the lime in the coconut, and drink 'em both up.

And now, a twist on something from roughly that era:

        who writes the post
        gives up the ghost
     baby it's the gemlog man

     who's gonna feel the woe
you know, baby, it's the gemlog man

        he can quote above
       he can seem real shy
      he will joke and clown
      then he'll wave goodbye

    somethin' keeps him postin'
        gobs and gobs a day
     finding more text-starved
             for prey

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