Happiness isn't real

~sonam

In the sense that it's linked with commodities

In the sense that you feel something when you get likes on your socials or matches on a dating app

In the sense, nothing makes any real sense these days

And it's been a long time that things haven't had made sense

Movies are made into games and games into movies

but you'll still watch that film which was originally an indie game

We are searching for LORE everywhere, even in memes

Maybe I'm really vexed. either that or i've grown more cynical

There's also the part where I lie to myself that I'm happy inorder to not be so depressed

I let go of some of my misanthropy and some of my disdain towards everything

I'm glad i'm reading more these days, watching more movies, ignoring my cell phone whenever possible

I also did some pushups deliberately

I plan to read all the books i've half read and haven't finished

I plan to fill the notebooks

I plan to meet and talk with real people offline

I plan to delulu that i'm happy even though i know happiness isn't real

I plan to stop online dictating the rules of online

I plan to grow and harvest my inner world, dearly