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I preferred the original formatting. :-)

the depth of dealing with

trauma cannot be understated

i didn't want to live after she passed

didn't actively try

but welcomed the reaper's embrace

(and frequently hoped for it)

it took the past three years to FINALLY

get to a place of healing

even now though the past finds ways

of haunting me

remind me of my failures and

what i irretrivably lost

the kids we never had

the memories we never made of growing old

of accomplishing the goals we'd had

it is

{{{||| H A R D |||}}}

harder than most know

but there is a way out

through about a ton of broken glass

concrete and strangling quicksand

BUT

there is

i'm just about at surface

despite it all

still crawling but not \\\S±uCk///

i wish you well tffb

may you find your peace as well, friend