And here I thought The Spice Girls were broadband.... >_<
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And here I thought The Spice Girls were broadband.... >_<
that's spic-ist! (!!!!)
And here I thought it was merely an existential threat to democracy!
no more schtick! haha
please write a nice good thing on midnight.pub/~inquiry
we need cOnTeNt
Well, let's see *cOnTeNt*, you write....
It's tough. I lose interest in writing so quickly these days. What begins in earnest is quickly bludgeoned by "But *why*?!!" 'Tis also straight-jacket-ed by a sense of a writing state of mind being a sort of trance causing my surroundings to disappear, a sort of sin against here-and-now-ness. I return, wondering where I went, whether leaving was such a good idea, pondering if leaving is better than staying (here/now), and so on.
So it's like just getting to the first period (punctuation) has become exhausting.
I know, I know: I seem to be doing it just fine now.
But am I? Is this really worth reading?
Does it actually rise to the level of *cOnTeNt*?
I've a fairly good excuse for the ambivalence, because last night included a rather taxing music performance, and staying awake a solid three hours longer than usual.
And then there's getting bogged you-know-which-direction in thought fog.
Probably the best part of my day so far was watching a YouTube video showing the outs in David Wells' perfect game. Tears. I was a huge Yankees fan in those days, and that was quite the special cherry during so great a run.
Then I watched something on the making of The Beatles' "Here Comes The Sun", which somehow led to a bit of life Pink Floyd.
Chanced upon some conspiracy theory site in Gemini space that - not unlike writing, anymore - was fun until it wasn't.
How am I doing?
I hear ya - a jumbled mess (for me) of "To Write or not To Write, That's What Doesn't Matter", lmao. I am in decent spirits of late, weather changes. But it is to each their own what they do - step on bull frogs or manifest a document so well written it puts Jane Eyre to shame. Either way, it's fine :)
Did the Scuttlebutt tell you? Did the grapvine broadcast well enough? Did you read the post about me having 1gbit Internet now? I'll be 'round.
Talk on irc of zines and things, encouraging others, but just updates here and there, really. I lurk, everywhere, always. If you hear a distant keyboard through the rain and echoing off alley walls, stirring a "who's there" into the dark of the Web, it's me - the words written aren't for anyone, though. Just to stretch the fingers as I peruse randomness.
Reminds me of something else...
stay well :)
You know, I *have* heard of people doing randomness-perusal finger stretches, now that you mention it....
Yep, read about your shiny new lead internet pipe. Just don't let the lead bugs bite! >_<
I read pretty much everything here that appears new (main feed), or that I"m notified of. It can be a little disappointing to miss out on others' yappings for not being part of their thread, though. Sometimes I wish the place were just one big stream, the only notion of replies being making the effort to block quote, searching to discover references/"replies", and so on. But I imagine there are drawbacks, especially for the host.
yea I'd be too R.w.a-y, and also an "expand comments" thing would cause cross-blog chaos, I'd imagine.
btw I found some stuff you may like checking out (albeit TONS to explore):
Smallweb Subway (small service at the moment)
https://gusbus.space/smallweb-subway/
and SmallWeb resources, which has so much friggin' stuff it's hard to imagine anyone ever logs into an actual social media site, anymore
https://discourse.32bit.cafe/t/resources-list-for-the-personal-web/49
..on that, I've felt the polarization of "Federated" services lately. Not that I use them, but the lack of updates from Masto feeds on my RSS and complaints therein, and also people "promoting" mentioning their own sites, I am feeling that Webmentions and any social-first leanings of the Internet are taking a dive. Like personal sites, pesonal homepages ('memba that language!?), zines and other quirks of the Internet are "now" more than even the years leading UP TO social media knee-capping most online activities.
It's all good, I'm happy about it. Eventually the mental clock starts to tick towards the bank and I think "when will THIS be commercialized?" much as everyone swore they'd abstain in blog 1.0 world, and then the tech/gossip/indie news/cooking/cleaning/whatever the-hell-else blogs came about and put ads on everything.
I exercised the demon of ads on a blog, or even having a dedicated blog, but I def fall into the guilty camp of the gossip blog purveyors (at one time).
Anyway, ~bartender, still back there? May I have an espresso. New modem and it'll be a late-nighter, me thinks :)