Midnight Pub
Internet
~detritus
I used to spend a lot of time on the computer and on the internet.
Now, the less I use it, the better.
It's not like I don't appreciate it, on the contrary, I appreciate it a lot more now.
I appreciate it for what it's good for, I don't overuse it, and I try not to use it wrongly.
I try not to make it affect me negatively.
I try not to engage in stupid mindless content that doesn't do me no good.
I look up the good stuff, I try to engage with communities, I try to open up to a wider world.
In this sense, the english-speaking internet is a cage I want to break out of.
It is decaying, and everybody knows that.
It will take me time, as new languages take a lot of effort to learn.
But I can engage in them, even if I don't understand a lot.
The internet opens up whole worlds of different cultures for me to explore.
In the meantime, I find other stuff to do
I garden
I build
I do handicrafts
I read tarot
And all of this engages my mind and my body in different ways
Away from the screen
A life through the screen is as good as a life never lived.
it correlates, actually.
I see some people still spend a lot of time on the screen
I see some people posting memes on facebook
I can't believe it
really?
And I feel ever more alienated from them
People I used to know
who were my friends.
I can't help but think
If I see them again
Will there still be any common ground between us?
Or have my values drifted so much from theirs, that a huge gap will open between us
that'll make communication almost impossible?
Not that I care a lot, I'm all the way over here
they are over there
But as values are a bit of a social thing, held in relation to others
I can't help but think
how much have I drifted
how different am I from them
and I will probably will feel very isolated if I ever see them again
It's a strange, lonely feeling.
. . .
But anyway, fuck them.
. . .
I like the wolf style
I've been "wolfing it"
it fits
it's nice writing this way.
I don't mean to plagiarize anyone
apologies if it feels that way.
inquiry
My wife and I performed for three hours at a winery we were somewhat regulars at for years. About a 10 hour day, travel included. Shot. I've that above average warmth feel that comes with working hard. Familiar faces, free drinks, solid pay, good tips. There was a TV actor in the crowd, possibly a second, but not from shows I ever watched regularly, so I'm probably out of luck on figure out their names. The Mexican food truck on site gave us a deal on eats for the ride home, which ride occurred during dusk, my favorite time of the day. Glorious skies meeting rather flat terrain the last third of the way.
Such a contrast to this morning, when I agonized a bit about possibly posting again, which might have led to a bit of exchange, but nothing remotely close to our rather epic outing (the Zep song "Kashmir" suddenly comes to mind).
Last night I was thinking the internet is a sort of karaoke night of life. It sounded a bit harsh at the time, but the contrast between typing this and today's performance is, well... black and white are suddenly not feeling so smugly proud at all....
tffb
I agree - social media is awful, ruined many friendships (online and off)
However, with computers/the Internet, I take a rounded approach to it (online use)
Staying away from the screen draws incomparable benefits - volunteering, working alongside friends, walking long distances, chatting over coffee about anything and everything
Also, the Internet and having an AFK attitude (Away From Keyboard), and realizing all interactions are as relevant and (potentially) interesting as those "irl"
A consorted effort from me in both worlds, as it's all the same world
Dark solitude and calm casualness when on the Web, big "ego"/presence and consequential interactions when out in the physical world
in a way night and day, in other ways just two flavors that compliment each other
and wolfing the writing is a great format. "One sentence per line" as the blogs had put it wasn't very eloquent
~bartender, a soda please? Getting to the night and then insomniac'ing my way through the eve most likely :)
wolfinthewoods
none taken
this wolf is honored
makes me glad to see
something i created
(( ( r e s o n a t i n g )))
with others
i am truly flattered
i wouldn't say
that we'll have
nothing in common
but on the contrary
when they come back
to the real
you will have much
to share about things
they probably don't realize they miss
but do
after all we all have a shared
intrinsic humanity
the false reality of social media
can't take that from us