Hello. It's been quite a while hasn't it? I peek through the windows of this place every once in a while. This resonated in me quite somewhat.
For me the big reason is that all this modern bot-crap is making the internet feel so out against us. It becomes so, so emotionally draining, because every single word you say can (and likely will) be used against you, literally. Both short term (a bot's answer depends entirely on what you send it) and long term (by getting your text scraped into a database).
Obviously I've also been (and still) going through so much, trying to grow as a person as much as possible. I can't deny that it's also a factor.
Despite my silence, I still... yearn. I yearn more than ever for interactions with people. I have been doing everything in my power to meet people in person and it is so hard.
These were our safe spaces... EVERYTHING got affected by bots, everything. Some websites fell, others became private... Don't let me even start about software projects.
In a way, corporations found a way to spill all of their evil into every single crevice of the web, automatically. It's like asbestos, or a computer worm, or both I guess. I haven't checked, but I'm SURE that a chatbot has posted here too. They have surely scraped this website tens of thousands of times.
I want to keep this stuff alive but it's genuinely hard.
You mention 2020. I guess that, because of all the pain and changes that the pandemic brought, we started caring for our humanity more than ever. We swiftly forgot.
I am tired.