Empty feeling

Do you guys ever feel like nothing will ever make you content? Like something deep inside you has changed in such a manner that nothing in the world will ever be able to make you feel content.

I just feel sad thinking about how everything just bores me nowadays. My friends, my hobbies, my family everything bores me to death. I also think about not being able to feel like how a person is supposed to feel. And I can't even articulate what I feel because I haven't been able to process it well myself.

Coming to this pub at this lazy hour just to vent what I'm going through.

Bartender please pour a round of drinks for everyone.....on me.

Someday if I feel like I'm able to process this feeling I'm going to write it properly and post it again. But now you have to contend with this ambiguous text.

eaplmx

About nothing making me content, I've felt like that lately.

I'm aiming for a minimalist lifestyle, since owning stuff is not that great anymore (I have most of my needs met). But also I'm a creator, so I need my stuff to be consumed. Weird feeling.

Now I'm exploring other ownership styles, like owning organizations, promises and free time. But then even by owning material stuff and intangibles, that's not enough.

I'm kind of indifferent on things I enjoyed before. Maybe is a slight depression. I think I should visit a professional. I don't want to fall in the vices of life.

Anyway, to everyone in the pub feeling the same, I wish you the best, and I hope you feel better soon.

tetris

is it actually boredom... or is it depression, or a general case of "weltschmerz"...?

I feel the latter, often.

Yesterday the Sahara desert came and dumped a ton of sand over the city. It was fascinating - exciting even - but afterwards you're just left with this helpless feeling that the world is broken and that there's nothing you can do to fix it.

eaplmx

"weltschmerz"... Interesting word, didn't know about it.

mouse

Thank you for the drink ~sonam.

The feeling sounds familiar - the lack of drive, inspiration, spark. The hamster wheel turneth.

You're not alone in that thought.

Finding our elusive "why" in life - is what pubs are for?

Be well.

inquiry

It could be premonition of how attention squandered in/on the seeming ex-ternal/ex-periential direction runs precisely opposite the way home.

sonam

I don't understand you sir

inquiry

Attention wandering directions other than in/upon itself: the seemingly All This in contrast to a very-convincingly-yet-still-merely-seeming free-willed individual self seemingly ex-periencing it.

Attention resting in/upon itself: <no words - i.e. "aboutness" - because words make sense only in the previous subject/object(s) context>

Does that help?

sonam

You sound like a mix of David Foster Wallace and Wittgenstein.

inquiry

Holy fucking shit, that's some pretty lofty company!

As fate and/or planetary alignments and/or freshly-mined crypto-randomness would have it, I did manage to read a bit of each in the increasingly distant past... (and somewhat ashamed to admit I never did finish "Infinite Jest"...) so I suppose it's possible *maybe* a *little* rubbed off....